#1 Mia The Girl With Facade

“Mia”

“Yes?”

“You are an easy book.”

You and I know that the world we live in is a world that has been layered with lies,bloods and tears.The way our ancestors had established it so that we,can live comfortably.The crazy facades  they have putted on – are deceiving.Ain’t it right?

Mia has realised a long time ago that the real her does not fit in the world she’s living in.In order to fit in,she needs to alter her personality.It takes her almost 4 years to develop herself as what people perceive today.Yes,she wasted the 4 damn years just to mingle with people when she can choose to trap herself in her cozy room with her books.

“I’m quite an actress myself haha,” Mia said to herself whilst showering.She counted using her fingers how many people actually believed this façade.”Shit,I even need to use extra fingers “ She cussed.

After finished showering,Mia wrapped herself in blue towel  - blue is her favourite colour just to remind herself how her sky is always blue.She hooped unto her bed and grabbed her mac and began browsing  for the latest news about the world.An actress should know what is happening in order to keep deceiving the people,don’t you think so?

“A Man Found Guilty For Killing Wife”

“Guard Raped A Handicapped Woman”

“An 11-Year-Old Gave Birth Out-Of-Wedlock”  

Mia bitted her nails,her eyebrows frowned.Only bastards killed his wife,raped a handicapped and fucked a kid.Oh crap,even I am still a virgin.And this kid…is giving birth to a baby?Mia closed her eyes again,what should I do..God.It looks like this world is already a messed-up one and from the way Mia observed it – it is becoming more and more messed-up as day passes.

An email popped-up,Mia clicked on the icon and scroll her mouse.Ah someone from secondary school asked to have lunch tomorrow,at Pavillion.I’m so not going there,full of kids who think that they are cool and just lepaking there to look cool ,and fake hipsters and full of people.Can’t anyone ask me for a date in the jungle or somewhere not in the crowd?

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“Mia!!!Mia!!!!Bangun la woiii!!!Miaaa!!Miaaaaa!!”

Shit  who’s that wretch disturbing my sleep.Oh crap,it is 11.30 A.M. Oh shit I missed my subuh Oh and that Pavillion date with Nadhirah.

Mia checked her phone only to find 32 missed calls and 12 messages.She rushed to the door and found Nadhirah,with her duck-mouth.

“You aa,always like this,online the whole night and sleep the whole day.You should be grateful that I am considerate enough to drop by and wake you up.” Nadhirah went straight into Mia’s apartment and gave Mia her infamous Friday sermon.

“Yea yea I know.By the way if you  go straight to Pavi then you won’t date with me la,”Mia,being herself gave the logic.

Nadhirah didn’t give much attention instead were looking around and could not stop blinking her eyes (because Mia forgot to close the window and the haze came in).She didn’t say anything though because she knew very well that this friend of hers is suffering deep inside although to be honest that did not have any link with closing the window.

It only took Mia 5 minutes to shower and another 5 minutes to dress up.She  dabbed toner unto her face and apply sunscreen and wore a light lipstick just to make sure nobody mistaken her for a back-to-life-corpse.

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After the so-perfect lunch at Pavi where the waitress brought the wrong dishes for Mia and splattered her meals afterward – of which pissed Mia off – Nadhirah brought Mia to a playground.She noticed that Kuala lumpur kids did not play outside anymore,maybe it is because of the kidnapers and yeah haze.Now shit haze.

“Nadhirah,you want me to choke in the haze?”

“Why not,you are already choke in your façade.”

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So they ended up spending the evening in Mia’s living room.

“So..tell me.What’s up with your life?”Nadhirah said and grabbed an orange juice placed on the small Japanese table.

“Yeah..so far so good..”

“Did you lose your temper?”Nadhirah asked,she was determined to help out her friend.She knew Mia so well,very well that Mia could not hide anything.They have been friends for 6 years.And Nadhirah was there when Mia wanted to change.

“Nope..”Mia said slowly,her eyes were fixed on the Moroccan matress her friend gave to her.”But sometimes I’m losing grip,though..I think like I’m expressing my feelings too much that I could not hide some of it..”

“But the feelings you show are limited right?”

“Yeah..like I beam like an idiot when I’m happy,pout when I’m sad,cry when I’m sad and hurt..I mean,I tried to express myself.But frankly it does not feel right every now and then..”

“The good thing is the progress.Mia,come to think of it,you used  to find it hard to express your feeling.Your face reaction was stoic no matter what is going inside.Your tone too,it was monotonous!”

Mia looked up into Nadhirah’s eyes,”so you are telling me that it is right to behave like this?I mean sometimes I pretend and act..it doesn’t come straight from my heart.You know like ustazah told us that what matters the most is our hearts..”

Nadhirah chuckled,”haha Mia..let’s call it transition..people change and it is normal during the change you are not feeling yourself.The past is in the past.I know you very well,and this new version of Mia is surely not perfect but it is a better one.”

“You know like..I’ve been hiding..and I am afraid that one day the old monstrous comes out and surprises everybody..like this is the alien Mia.”

“Let the real you becomes the third face you own.After all everyone of us has three faces.”

 Mia smiled.She felt relieved.She would  always try to work on her soul,to clean it,to purify it and to nourish it.She knew she was not a perfect muslim – but she strives to be a good one.And yes she putted on façade but if it is on good use,why not?